Tadah air mata

I try to remember...

When was the last time I cried?
Cry here means cry sadly for something that really really hurts
I just can't remember whether I have cried recently...
One thing that came into my mind was the incident four years ago

I was able to cry anywhere, everywhere, anytime.

You just name it.
I was able to cry during lunch, dinner, praying, studying bla bla bla

At that time, my tears were worthless.

Perkara paling berat tak tertanggung. Hanya air mata medium untuk ceritakan semua.

Every word I uttered was full of misery

Every smile I gave was a fake

I just do not know how to describe how awful I looked like back then.

This song that I attached is a beautiful one

I can feel it.
I know how does it feel when you feel down.
I can feel the same feeling while listening to this song.
And...
Why suddenly these tears are streaming down?
Why suddenly I have to wipe all these grieves?

Haihhhhh. Ape la sedih no lagu nih.
Jadi la hamba cinta. Padan muka.