You are my 'Awan Nano'

This is specially dedicated to my parents.

My 'Awan Nano' for almost 28 years.

They are doing miracles in ensuring that I have a successful life.

I do not anything valuable to repay their kindness.

I only pray for their happiness.

Thanks dear parents for the wonderful moments that we have spent together.

Who knows... 

Maybe one fine day, I will also become someone's 'Awan Nano'

and I hope I will also do miracles to them as same as my parents did to me :)

Di mana agaknya aku 10 tahun dari sekarang?

Tahun ini tahun ke empat aku bergelar penjawat awam. Aku sangat perlu belajar konsep bersyukur kerana aku mampu cuti sebulan gaji jalan. Patut sangat rasa bersyukur. Mana ada majikan nak bagi kerja macam ni. Selalunya time cuti semester yang boleh cuti sakan, bergolek-golek depan tv di rumah. Satu reward yang sangat bermakna selepas hampir 6 bulan berperang psychology dengan ramai manusia. Mungkin ramai yang rasa untungnya jadi cikgu. Cuti banyak. Itu pun nak komplen macam-macam. Pada aku, individu berkenaan dipersilakan menjadi cikgu selama seminggu. Aku tak bagi tempoh lama. Seminggu sudah cukup. Kalau rasa macam ada ilmu kebal, kasi up sebulan. Mungkin lepas tu baru tau kenapa cuti kena lama daripada profession yang lain. 


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Selalunya kalau aku cuti sebulan, the first three days sahaja aku rasa seronok bermalas-malasan. Masuk seminggu, akan rasa bosan amat ada di rumah.
Agaknya kalau pencen nanti mesti aku hampir separuh sewel duduk di rumah tak buat apa
Hanya online, bla bla bla
Buhsan!


Tapi bila memikirkan indahnya cuti, hati rasa syukur.
Kerja sekarang amat sesuai kalau plan untuk berumahtangga.
Cuti sekolah kita cuti.
Senang nak pergi kenduri kendara.
Cukup sebulan melayan family di rumah.
Encik Somi mesti rasa senang hati. (Encik Somi habaq hang. Sila gelak sampai luruh rahang).


Tapi...


Kalau memikirkan career advancement,
Mungkin ada baiknya kerja di tempat yang lebih banyak bagi peluang untuk majukan diri.
Banyak buat research.
At least tidak jumud atas kerja yang sama.


Itulah dia...
Dilema seorang penjawat awam iaitu aku.


Ntah...Tak tau.
Masih memikir. Masih merancang.
Andai kata jodoh itu sampai awal, mungkin plan aku juga akan bertukar.
Kerjaya sekarang sangatlah sesuai untuk seseorang yang mementingkan keluarga.
Dalam hidup pun kena set priority. Sacrifice untuk family.
Ntah. Ini pendapat aku. Pendapat kamu mungkin tidak sama. Mungkin kerana hala tuju kita berbeza atau cara kita memandang permasalahan ini juga dari sudut berbeza.


Maka tinggal la aku dengan tanda tanya yang sama,
Apa hala tuju aku sepuluh tahun dari sekarang?
Mahu di sinikah atau beralih arah?
Wallahualam.

Exam result dah keluar bro!

Hello world!
Ye. Sejak Black Lappy menjadi arwah, desktop office pulak berperanan sebagai harapan dusta sebab takda internet connection, maka blog ini jadi for display only.

Pathetic la jugak sebab hanya mampu melihat desktop dengan pandangan kosong. Lebih sadis bila tanpa segan silu dan tawaduknya meminjam notebook adek. Terima Kasih adek. Jasamu dikenang.

Result sem lepas telah terpamer di ruang layar. Apa perasaan? Sedih sikit tapi padan la muka aku. Malas sangat study. Assignment tak cantik. Ada hati nak skor 3.8. Duduk jela aku dekat area 3.5 saja. Nonetheless, aku kena belajar bersyukur banyak-banyak. Ada orang study bagai nak rak. Result ngam2 3.00. Aku ni usaha ciput. Lebih kurang macam invest sikit tapi nak kaya juta-juta. Tak padan langsung. Sesuai sangat la result aku tu. Bersyukur ye wahai hati. Nanti project paper, sila la naikkan pointer anda. Usaha lebih, ganjaran lebih.

That's all for now. Tak banyak yang harus dikongsi. Selagi tak dapat laptop sendiri, usaha untuk tambah entry adalah sia-sia. Maka mari berdoa semoga dapat laptop tak lama lagi. Tapi kalau dapat laptop kaler merah, lagi happy kot?

Perkara tak tersenarai dalam azam

Salam 1Malaysia. Salam Perak Aman Jaya.
kalau direct translate in English, my students said, Salam Perak Peace Success. Haha

I was busy with English Camp last week. Plan to update the blog this week. But...
Things did not work as I plan. T___T

I am using my sister's notebook now. It's all because my beloved black lappy has gone KAPUT!
Waaaaaa! Stress!!!

I am now looking around for any quotation to buy a new one. The one that was Kaput was a very good one. I used it for about 4 years. We had been through so many things together. I am going to miss it.

Laptop is very important for me. I really need to buy a new one. I am extremely desperate to get a new one. So now I am not sure which brand should I pick. Should I get a Mac???
(I keep on stressing on the words "NEW ONE"! See! I am that desperate!)

Gosh! I really hope that I will get a new lappy a.s.a.p.
Should I ask Abah to help me? hehehe
Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want This Time...

Salam Kebebasan

It has been three years now.
Nothing change much.
I just feel much relieve and grateful.
Thanks Lord for this.

Three years and keep on counting!
You know you can survive!

You are stronger than you can ever imagine. Have faith.

This is too good to be true

WHAT GIRLS WANT

LEAVE HER SWEET TEXT MESSAGES. KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS. TRUST HER 0VER EVERY0NE ELSE. TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL. L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER. TELL HER STUPID J0KES T0 MAKE HER LAUGH.
LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR..MESS WITH HER HAIR. JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER. INCLUDE HER IN ALL THINGS Y0U D0. WHEN SHE CRIES D0 WHATEVER IT TAKES T0 MAKE HER SMILE. F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES. L00K AT HER LIKES SHE'S THE 0NLY GIRL Y0U SEE. TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P. H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE AROUND Y0UR FRIENDS. WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER. LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS. GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER. TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK. STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHE'S SICK. WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE. KISS HER F0REHEAD. GIVE HER THE W0RLD. WRITE HER LETTERS. LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES. WHEN SHE'S SAD, HANG 0UT WITH HER. LET HER KN0W SHE'S IMP0RTANT. LET HER TAKE ALL THE PH0T0S 0F Y0U SHE WANTS. KISS HER IN THE RAIN. CALL HER EVERY NIGHT. AND WHEN Y0U FALL IN L0VE WITH HER, TELL HER. L0VE HER LIKE Y0U NEVER L0VED BEF0RE.

For me....
At the beginning of a relationship, everything seems VERY VERY VERY NICE. Hidup terawang-awang bahagia. Semua rasa hebat, rasa indah, rasa happy, macam bunga-bunga ros berguguran. The guy, of course would do anything for you. Semua nampak baik, semua nampak ikhlas, semuanya cantik. Kalau ada yang tak kena pun tetap pujuk hati, rasa semuanya Ok.

But....

That would only last for few months. It will be temporary. Things will change. The word PERMANENT in a relationship might be too good to be true... Maybe I am being negative and skeptical here. But that's the ugliest truth though it is a bit harsh.

Siapa tak nak bahagia?
Ada orang yg ambil berat, sayang, jaga kita. Semua orang nak ada rasa sense of belonging especially when lots of your friends, cousins are getting married and left you with a question :
When Will Be My Turn?

hmm... I am not looking for something temporary.
I want something PERMANENT
cause it is really really really IMPORTANT.

Semester dah bermula + dah start mengajar + monitor academic performance of the mentees + lesson planning + exam questions designing + organizing event (English Camp) + preparing activities for classes + house chores + lack of energy
= MALAS UPDATE BLOG!




p/s: Proposal for project paper satu hape tak buat lagi. Tahniah!