October shows its colours

I have prayed that October to be nice and kind to me and my friends
Unfortunately, it does not happen as I planned
Maybe Allah has planned something else for me.

I am now a lousy multitasking student + teacher.
Too many things to handle with a very inefficient time management.
While writing this entry, I had just finished googling and studying a topic for my next class.
I mean my second degree a.k.a master class.
Still confuse whether to just follow the flow or drop a subject.
This semester will be the hardest one.
My support system should be tougher this time.
Cause somehow, I also think of quitting.
DAMN.

Being positive is very hard this time.
I hardly sense any positive vibes around me.
Well of course I have Lil Hitler but she is way beyond my abilities.
She is extremely good I must say.
Her determination is too tough wherein I myself only have a minimal amount of confidence.
Gosh! I need to increase my motivation!

Hmm...
Just can't write anymore.
Everything turns to be very dull and dark.
I hate myself for having this kind of feeling.
It's like repeating the same story line.

I AM OFFICIALLY EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY UNSTABLE!
damn.