It's the matter of persuading yourself

It's ok dear heart to wish for something that other people might laugh out loud and look down on you.
Though it seems almost impossible to be achieved, but it's your future.
You are the one who creates it.
Please have a strong belief that everything is possible.
You are able to achieve it.
You just have to be patient.
Pray a lot
Let Allah decides whether is it worth it to get what you ask for.

Allah knows best.
I would just sit silently
and pray for my wishes will be answered.
Amin.